The Courage to Blossom
Okay, I have done everything possible – taken a bath, fixed lunch, put away the dishes, checked email, had a baby (and now he is seven!) – to avoid the most important task of the day: write my first blog post. I have dreamed of this for months. No, let’s be honest. It’s been years.
I know hardly anything about blogging, I don’t Twitter and I have a love/hate relationship with Facebook. Somehow blogging feels so scary – an online diary of sorts, an opportunity to share my ideas, feelings, and experiences with the world. To be seen and heard in all sorts of vulnerable ways.
Since I was a teenager I have longed to be my full self – without hesitation or apology. The kind of person who just shines and gives her heart to the world. I think I do that mostly. But the little part of me that wants to be “liked” and appreciated, to do a “good job” and get approval still talks (sometimes screams) in the background: ‘What if they don’t like it? This is risky…’
And yet (pause). What an incredible opportunity to share my voice, passions, and insights as a mother, midwife, and life coach! That just feels so darn juicy and good. I have something important to say, and more importantly – a calling to do so.
I know I am not alone in this. As a life coach I hear it over and over – the places our hearts long for and how we play small in order to stay safe. We all have, at one time or another, settled for less because it is “easier”, but at what cost? Making change, taking risks, leaving home (so to speak) is scary, no doubt. But let’s be honest, is it really “easier” to stay in our comfort zone while we become increasingly depressed, bored, and frustrated? The stakes are high.
My heart drinks in the words of Anais Nin: “Then the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud became more painful than the risk it took to blossom”. Today is that day. Even when I am scared, even when I don’t know what or exactly how, I make the commitment to unfold, petal by petal. I feel the encouragement of light and love, and share my heart with the world.
What does your heart long for? Take a few quiet moments to pause and listen. If voices come up expressing fear or doubt, compassionately acknowledge their positive intentions to keep you safe and free of harm. Remember these are not the only voices inside you and turn attention back to your heart. Be curious. Feel the fullness of your dreams and longings.
What’s one thing you will do today to blossom? Dare to not only dream today, but trust your knowing and take one (even small) step forward.